Friday, August 28, 2009

update on Baby Anden

He is growing bigger everyday! He is also getting much sronger! He kicks so hard sometimes it takes my breath! He also likes jumping on my bladder like its a trampoline LOL Im starting to gain MORE of my baby weight( so far its only been 15 lbs all together, which my doctor says is great for me being 7 months along) but its okay because I am pregnant and I except the fact that you get bigger during pregnancy. You can always loose it afterwards. Im just so thankful everyday for God blessing me with Anden and I cannot wait until he is here! I have so much to do coming up! Baby shower in september, I start going every 2 weeks to the doctor this month, I have so much planning to do because he will be here before we know it! I gotta contact my pediatrician, talk to my doctor about delivery plans, attend birthing classes( yes aubrey and I are going because this is our first child and we want to know EVERYTHING we can before he gets here),I also would like to find a breast feeding class to go and get some tips and advice on breast feeding. I have been so stressed out worrying about how breastfeeding will be. I worry I wont do it right lol Mom says to stop stressing it will come natural, but I think its normal for me to worry dont you think? Anyways, I go tomorrow to help sign up aubrey's little cousin for the fair pagent. I loove fair time! food booths, candy apples, and funnel cakes OH MY! lol

27 weeks and Maternity Photo Shoot Part 1

only 13 weeks to go!!

My photo shoot part 1 pictures are up for viewing! go to to view them! ask her for the password for viewing! They was supposed to be a surprise for me but she broke down and let me see them! lol I love them! Im really glad we chose now to have my pictures done because if I was any bigger I wouldn't have been able to move around like I did lol Good thinking Chandi!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Taking some time out to enjoy life's blessings

My lifelong friend kara came down to visit! I was so excited to hear she was in town and had little edyn bug! I just love this kid. She is so full of personality! just like her momma! I got a few pictures of her and it was hard because she doesnt want to sit still long enough to take a picture LOL we took her to the jungle gym and she looved the swings! Cannot wait for my little monkey to be here!


All the nursery needs is just some finishing touches. I need to do hang his curtains which are chocolate brown, hang shelves so I can put some stuffed animals and some sports knick Knacks, my stepdad is making him some vinyl wall art quote that says,"Never Let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." He also wnats to make some vinyl murals relating to sports to go on his walls too.I thought it would go perfect with his sports theme room. Everything else is pretty much done. I have his clothes put away( he already has more clothes than I do, but I LOVE it). Here are some pictures for all you who have texted and emailed me wanting to see what I have done so far. Well here it is! Ill post pictures when I have the other stuff up too!

WELCOME TO ANDEN'S ROOM! This picture was taken looking into his room. Like I said still gotta hang some stuff up but you get the picture lol

This is his crib. I just loove it. We was originally going to do the furniture in white, but we thought white would stay dirty and cherry just looked so beautiful with all his stuff. We got an awesome deal on his bed too so that helped!

This is my changing table I got. I had thought about getting a dresser/changer combo, but I loved the idea of putting baskets underneath for organizing his hygeine necessities. The first row of baskets will hold his burp cloths, wipes, and his hats. The second row will hold his bath stuff, towels and wash cloths, and recieving blankets. I have some baskets that are red and blue that I am going to hold his toys in and they will slide underneath his bed.

This is the view inside his bed. I love the crib bedding we decided on. Aubrey has always been involved in sports, and Im sure our son will be too lol Aubrey wanted to be the one to put his bedding in and attach his bumper. It was so cute watching him I wish I had my camera then lol

My mother in law had seent his rug at lowes and called me to come look at it. When I got there to see it I HAD to get it because it matches his room to a TEE!! My little sports man:)

Here are a few of his figurines and knick knacks that I'm gonna put around his room. I also have some frames that are sporty that I'm gonna frame his ultrasound pictures in. I also have a cherry collage frame I'm gonna hang up and put his first pictures in. I cannot wait!

His cute window valence that I got with his bedding. The baby crib has great stuff let me tell ya! Im also gonna hang some chocolate brown curtains under the valence so it won't look boring for long:)

Here is our armoire. I love it! The right side with the long door, inside of it has shelves and a hanging bar. This is already full of onesies, gowns, shoes, and outfits lol I just love clothes! and thanks to some friends who donated some stuff to my sweet baby!

Can't you tell he is already a very spoiled and loved baby?! LOL

My mother in law would kill me for posting this but I just love it so much. She made this to go on his door and it just means so much to me! I just love it! and I just love her too!

Also Brandie Mansfield made these canvases for me! I wanted his name spelled out on canvases, but I did not want it all on one so I told her each letter on a different canvas so I can hang it above his crib! They turned out more perfect than I could have imagined! You can steal these pictures if you want brandie! I also am having my maternity shoot coming up and we plan on taking some shots in his room so Ill send you a picture of that too!

I believe his room is my favorite room in the house lol I cannot wait to post the rest of the pictures when his room is COMPLETELY done!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Bring the Rain

Truly a beautiful song

Stuck in my head now:o)

So aubrey and I was playing songs to the baby and I came across this and thought it was so darn cute lol

Saturday, August 22, 2009

26 weeks pregnant!

WOW is all I can say! only 14 more weeks to go!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

To My Mom

Let Them Be Little

I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand.
You felt so good in it; no bigger than a minute.
How it amazes me you're changin' with every blink.
Faster than a flower blooms, they grow up all too soon.

So let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give 'em hope, give them praise,
Give them love every day.
Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let 'em sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.

I never felt so much in one little tender touch.
I live for those kisses, your prayers an' your wishes.
An' now you're teachin' me how only a child can see.
Tonight, while we're on our knees, all I ask is:

Please, let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give them hope, give them praise,
Give them love every day.
Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let 'em sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.

The so innocent, precious soul:
You turn around, an' it's time to let them go.

So let them be little,
'Cause they're only that way for a while.
Give them hope, give 'em praise,
Give them love every day.
Let 'em cry, let 'em giggle,
Let them sleep in the middle,
Oh, but let them be little.

Let them be little.


I went by and registered for some personalized stuff for Anden at kathys, and she had some of the cutest items! Check out her blog for all the cute new stuff she has in! I love one of my diaper bags that she has done. Notice I said "one" because Mr. Anden has a whole matching luggage set because his momma couldn't make up her mind on what to get LOL her site is in my links! have a good day!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

My New BFF!!!!

Brandie is my new bff lol I LOOVVEEE these canvases she made for Anden's room! Matches his room and bedding perfectly! We done his room in sports theme and she incorporated the sports balls into the painting! Love love love them!!! Check out her blog in my favorite links! Thanks Brandie you are awesome!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

For Audrey

Angie Smith and her Husband Todd Smith( lead singer in the christian group Selah) lost their babygirl audrey caroline last april. I could NOT even begin to imagine the hurt this family had to go through but because they had God in their lives he helped them through his horrible time and made them stronger spiritually and all. I sobbed my eyes out after hearing this. Even though audrey didnt make the entrance into this world like they had thought, you still grow this incredible bond while your child is in the womb. Your already protective of your child, you worry about your child, and have all different emotions for your child, and to not be able to watch your child you grew inside you grow up is just a devastating thought! I probably do not need to be watching things like this while I am pregnant but I had to share this in honor of little miss audrey. Angie and her husband wrote this song for their baby girl who is in heaven. Im sure you guys will love this song as much as I do.

To read audrey's story copy and paste this link to your browser :

A letter Angie wrote for her daughter( grab some tissues!)

Sweet Audrey,

There are no words I could say in this letter that would be able to express what you are to us, but I feel compelled to write them anyway.

Do you know you changed the world?

From the day we found out we were expecting you, we knew that God had chosen you for our family. When we started feeling you move around, we invented stories about who you would be. We took bets on whether you were a boy or a girl (daddy was wrong!). Abby and Ellie set aside toys that they wanted to give to you. Your daddy let me buy books at the bookstore about being pregnant, even though we already have a million. He knows I love the smell of books, and he just watched with a smile while I gathered them all together. We talked about you all the time. Our house was filled with love for you long before we ever knew who you would be to us. We let Kate help us set up a crib in her room while we told her that she was going to have a baby brother or sister sleeping next to her someday. We introduced her little toddler bed and taught her all about being a big sister. She loved her freedom...we found her in the pantry eating chocolate at 3 a.m. one night! And so for weeks, we planned. We talked about names, about paint, about schools, about everything but the one thing we didn't know.

God had something much bigger planned for your life than we could ever have imagined.

On January 7th, we heard the beginning of the story. You kicked while I listened to them tell me that I should let you go. You, unable to say a word, spoke volumes as we considered what had been laid before us. Audrey, there really was never a choice. You were ours from the moment God ordained it so. There were moments in the darkness during that time when I worried that maybe we should give you to God. We didn't want you to suffer, and we knew that as soon as you were with Him, you would be at peace. Were we selfish for trying to keep you here? We knew before we let ourselves travel into those thoughts that they were lies. That decision was not for us to make. We settled into the reality of "our new life," and the stacks of books on pregnancy gave way to scripture.

Did you know that while you were in my tummy, you went to the beach, to Disney World, to the ballet, to the zoo, to the symphony, to pick out our puppy, to the children's theatre, to listen to daddy sing, to church, to Poppy's house...and so many more places. I talked to you about how the laundry machine worked, told you about all our neighbors, and taught you how to choose a ripe pineapple at the grocery store. I never stopped talking to you. You were my daughter, and I loved you like I love your sisters. We prayed for you all the time. Our prayers changed with the days. We never, ever doubted that God could heal you. I know you know that. I know you felt that. But I still feel compelled to tell you that we believed, Audrey. And the fact that you are with Him as I type these words does not change that belief. There is not a single moment that passes when I question His will for your life.

I will never, never forget the day you were born. Nobody who was a part of it will, either. April 7th was one of the best days of my life. You made me brave, Audrey-girl. Your mommy used to be afraid of the hospital, afraid of the noises and the smell of medicine. My whole life, I have been afraid. I wasn't afraid that day. I was peaceful. I was calm. I was in the presence of the Lord Himself more than any other time in my life. I listened as they told me about what would be happening that day, and I nodded. I surrendered. I stopped worrying about me and I just fell into the arms of the Lord. He carried us all that day, didn't He?

At 4:31, I heard a nurse say, "She's out." Daddy said, "She's out?" and he peeked around to see them carrying you to a table nearby. I thought I heard you squeaking and I asked if you were alive. Daddy looked at me and he nodded. "She's alive." I couldn't believe it. The doctors looked you over and they listened to your heart. They cleaned you off a little bit and then daddy laid you right beside my head. You had one little eye opened and you were trying to take it all in. I was too. I put my hands on your head and just started crying because you were so beautiful. I fell completely, head-over-heels in love with you the instant I met you. That's who you are, Audrey.

When we got back to the room, your Uncle Tom was already taking pictures. Do you know that he took about 1600 that day? We rejoiced in telling everyone that you were alive. Your heart was moving slowly, and we knew that it was a matter of time before we would have to release you, but no one would have known that. For the rest of the day, people held you, touched you, talked to you, and prayed for you. And everybody smiled when they saw you. There weren't many tears, because in a way, we weren't sad. We were just too busy praising God for you to be sad.

Your daddy gave you a bath while I watched. He got all of your little tootsies clean, and I watched the water run down the back of your neck as he held you up. Her first bath...

One of my favorite moments was when they put you on the scale. You were much bigger than they thought you were ever going to be, and it felt like victory. "3 pounds, 2 ounces!" As soon as the announcement was made, the room broke out into cheers. Did you know that your daddy's birthday is 3/2? Those are beautiful numbers to us, sweet girl, because they tell us that you were here. You had weight in this life.

Your sisters were a little nervous when they came, but as they looked you over, God showed them who you were. The peace that had filled the room for the entire day rested on them, and they began to laugh and to talk to you as they would any other new baby. They each held you carefully, and kissed your sweet, clean skin. While they were all gathered around me on the bed, your nurse Candace came to listen to your heart. I asked her to be sensitive because of the girls, and after listening for a few minutes, she told me quietly that you were gone. The girls never knew that they had been present for that moment, and I thank God that He took you that way. There was never anything but peace. We sang over you as God welcomed you into heaven.

I cry for you often. I miss the smell of your skin and your perfect little nose. My arms ache from emptiness. I tell your daddy all the time that I just want to hold you again. I cannot see to write these words because my eyes overflow with the tears of a mother who has been asked to give her daughter away. I knew I would love you when I met you. I knew you would become a part of me. What I didn't know was that instead of feeling like it was a brief encounter, I feel like the world stood still. He somehow gave us an entire lifetime of memories in such a short time. I didn't feel like I lost a baby, I felt like I said goodbye to someone I had always known, who had been my daughter for years and years. Even now, as I write, it seems impossible that you were only with us for 2 1/2 hours. Thank you Lord, for giving us all the time we could have asked for with her. The clock was insignificant... we knew her deeply, a lifetime's worth.

Audrey, you have no idea how you have impacted those around you. Did you see all of the nurses who cried when they came to see me? Did you hear the nurse manager tell me that since you had been born, the name of the Lord had been spoken repeatedly at their station in a way it never had? That you, my love, had brought them together? Did you know that the people who came to your birth who knew nothing of your story talked about the "amazing peace" that filled the room inexplicably? Do you know that there were radio stations all over the country announcing that your mommy was going into surgery while people drove home to their familes? Do you know they asked for prayer as you entered the world; that strangers dropped to their knees on your behalf? Do you know how many people have met Jesus because of you? There is more than I can fit here, Audrey. More than I can fit anywhere. You are the greatest miracle that I have ever been a part of, and I want you to know how incredibly proud I am to have been chosen to be your mommy. I promise you that I will never stop being your voice here on earth. I will tell everyone about the little girl who came in a 3 pound body to change hearts. I will always miss you, Audrey; there will never be a day where you are not a part of us. I want you to know that you changed me, honey. You made mommy so brave because of how much I loved you. I am so proud to have a scar to remember where you once were.

Thank you, my sweet, sweet girl.

Today we are going to sit as a family and we are going to take the band-aids off the bunny that we have carried for months. We are going to tell your sisters about the way that Jesus has healed you...that you don't need those anymore because you are well. You are perfect. Thank you Lord.

As I have been writing, the rain is pounding on my window. It is what many would call a very dark and ugly day, with no sign of sunshine. Because of you, Audrey, it is not that way to me any more.

It is an answer to prayer.

Jesus, you have brought us the rain and we praise You for it. We lift up the God that made us strong enough to love our little girl the way she deserved to be loved. And we trust that You will continue to use her as a vessel of your goodness, of your faithfulness. Lord, you have shown me that when this life is empty, you will fill. You have walked with us in a way we could never have imagined. What seemed like a cross to bear has now taken the shape of a great blessing which we are honored to have been a part of. Thank you, Lord. You are the light of our lives, now and forever.

Audrey, there is much more to say. I rest in knowing that you already know it before it has left our lips. We love you.

Sweetest baby girl.

Do you know you changed the world?


I Will Carry You

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Touched my Heart

This video just touched my heart! I just SOBBED after watching this. Such a great song and the meaning behind it such a true feeling you want for your child.

Sorry Officer

Noah,3, loves to point out fire trucks, ambulances, and police cars, expecially larger SUV police cars. One day while I was Driving, Noah shouted," Look, Mom, there's one of those police S.O.B's!"

Daddy's Girl:
When my two yr old daughter told me she wanted to marry me I said, " But what about Mommy?" she replied," She's nice, She will find someone new."

Lost in Translation:

My 7 yrs old son asked why my baby daughter was crying. I told him she was hungry and he said, " I don't know how you can understand her accent."

Eye Q:

One weeked my sone was in the flower beds, imitating me with his play wheelbarrow and shovel. when the clouds parted I put on my sunglasses and asked him if he wanted his too. He said," No, its okay Im not that bright."

Mature Audience Only

Whenever there is a certain program on TV that I don't want my 3 yr old son to watch, I turn it off and tell him that show is "only for grown ups" One evening when we had people over for dinner he walked right up to on our family friends and said, " My mom watches adult movies."

I got a subscription to PARENTS magazine and had to share some funny "Baby Bloopers" or funny things kids say, that parents have sent in to share. I just love these lol
I wonder what funny things my child will come up with lol

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Please Pray

I would like to ask everyone to please pray for my uncle. Two days ago he woke up and was paralyzed, and eneded up in st. thomas. They ran some tests and found he had a slip disk in his neck that was laying on a nerve causing paralysis. They did the surgery yesterday. It was a 6 hour surgery, and when he came out of it he had total loss of muscle strength and they are having to run more test on him because they think he may have lou gehrings disease. My mom has lost one brother this year and is so tore up with all this. My uncle needs LOTS of prayers. We all know God can perform miracles if we come to him in need! PLease say an extra prayer for my uncle and my family. We would appreciate it. Have a good rest of the week.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

looking back

Nobody really realizes it until looking back that by making that walk down the isle your walking into a lifetime full of happiness and suprises and knowing one day your going to have a family together and all the stuff you guys are going to endeavor along the way. I never dreamed of how wonderful my life would be, and I know this may say corny but God has truly gave me the world by giving me aubrey, and now our son, in my life. I mean he is everything I could ask for and more and I truly pray for the ones still searching for their special one, to find that one, and to experience the happiness and joy and love that aubrey and I have with each other. It just gets better and better every day. Marriage is a commitment to each other and to God. It is so sacred and so precious that I wish more people see it the way they ought to. I have always said and believe with all my heart that what helps people in a marriage is honesty, loyalty, commitment, love, GOD, but also never going to bed angry, always apologizing first even if you think your right and he is wrong because in the end it doesn't matter who is right or wrong. I know I am young, and I know you learn so much about marriage and life the older you grow, I am just so thankful that aubrey and I can show that just because we are young doesn't mean our marriage doesn't stand a chance. I believe with every marriage if you work together and grow in love and in God you will be okay.

I mean looking back when we first started dating, I wouldn't have thought that wow one day , six years from now, we will be married and fixing to welcome our son into this world. I just have to pinch myself! God truly has a plan for everyone and when you stop and look at what he wants you to see you will find what you are looking for. Some people are just so blinded by the things that doesnt matter and thats why they cant find their happiness. Its like when you find that one just for you everything falls in place. The others in the past didnt work out because its like a puzzle not all the pieces fit until you find the right one to connect it. I always knew aubrey would be the one its just so surreal to know we are married now and having a baby. I know this next chapter in our life will change our lives forever. I am so ready more than ever to meet this little guy inside me and be his mom. Life is full of blessings and I am truly blessed. Isn't Our God a Wonderful God!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

My other sweet baby:)

She is her daddy's girl for sure! I think she is starting to realize there is something going on with me, because she has followed me around everywhere here lately( more than usual) and she sneaks into the baby's room and sniffs out everything trying to figure out why we are always in there. I was looking for her one day and I noticed the nursery door slightly open , so I pushed the door open and she was laying on the rug by the crib LOL She loves babies and kids but I wonder how she will do once anden is here to stay. The second photo is her getting excited as we are pulling up to "her" nana's house LOL You can say , " Want to go to nan's?" and she has a fit lol I just love her:)

I also came in when putting the bedding on the crib and found this lol she is gonna be so jealous, because right now she is the only baby lol

22 and 23 weeks:)

6 months

Friday, August 7, 2009

Dream Custom Artwork Giveaway!

Brandie is giving away a $40.00 gift certificate and all you have to do is comment! Mommy Must Haves is hosting the giveaway! There are more ways to enter, so please visit both sites in my links for contest rules and to see your options.!! I LOVE GIVEAWAYS!!

SHOW US YOUR LIFE- Wedding Reception/ honeymoon

I believe our reception was the hardest part to plan and decorate for our wedding. Of course everything had a fall touch to it. We had a memory table set up with our grandparents photos on it, and we also had a special candle made that said " In Loving Memory" And we had it lit as everyone walked downstairs to the recepetion. We had a fall scene with haystacks and pumpkins for decorations. ( Ill post those pictures whenI get home:) Bridget Powers made my wedding cake. It was a 22 layer cake and all kinds of fall accents! I had a water fountain underneath my cake as well. Aubrey's groom's cake was of a softball field( his 2nd home lol).

We was so blessed to have our closest friends there to celebrate our special day with us. Aubrey's best man, Brian, a friend since highschool caught the garter:) and my sister-in-law caught my bouquet, and she is now married! what a coincidence;)

Some of my highschool Friends came to see our special day! Thanks girls!

I Still Cannot get over this picture about how long my hair was! Debi did an awesome job on my hair! I loved every bit of my day!

Our Food was ammazing! Bridget also did the catering at our wedding. We had food everywhere and boy was it delicous! Here is a picture of one of our food tables with My servers and I! Thank Heaven for these girls. I would have been lost without you girls!

This was one of my favorite snapshots of aubrey smashing the cake in my face. He got the biggest kick out of that because he somehow got it all over me and I didn't get any on him! lol

Hailey, one of my great friends, was really a great friend that day. She helped me clean up aubrey's mess that was all over me lol I do not know what i would have done without her!

Our Wedding will be forever one of the greatest days of our lives. It truly was everything I could have wanted and more. I had my dream wedding with my dream guy. God has truly blessed me!

Honeymoon pictures to come!!